The biggest paradox about pornography is you. Yes, you. If
you take the time to dive in to the mind of any addict you will find a war
raging. There are ups and downs bigger than the X2 at Magic Mountain. There is
no where to hide from the enemy when it’s right inside your own head.
You hate yourself for what you do, yet you love doing it. You crave it. How
does someone wage a war against themselves? How do you overcome your enemy when
you are the enemy?
The duality of addiction is the biggest paradox with regards
to pornography. It is almost as if there are two of you within one body. One that
screams in pain and another that shouts for joy. You would think it impossible
for both to exist in the same instance in the same being, but they do. It is
probably the biggest struggle associated with pornography addiction. “Dual-personalities” exists until the
individual gives up the fight entirely or becomes so fed up with it that they
overcome the addiction.
Living like this can only exist for so long before we are compelled
to make the decision. Unfortunately too
many lose the battle. I dare say that rapists, pedophiles, and sex traffickers probably didn't think their “casual” watching of pornography would have led them to make the
terrible decisions they made. Nobody plans on becoming an addict. Nobody.
There is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. Thanks to
our ability to choose, we can always decide we are going to change before it is
too late. We can give up the fight and
give into the addiction or we can push back and let the light enter back into
our lives. Vulgar thoughts lead to vulgar words. Vulgar words lead to vulgar
actions. As we act on the vulgar and foul things we see, we chase away all that
is good and virtuous in our lives. That virtue can be rekindled with much
effort and can reignite the flame within us that leads us to the good in life.
We are never too far lost to return to the light and shed ourselves of
addictions.
Life is too beautiful to live in a dark hole; we need the
light to live. Keep fighting, there is always hope. We are here to help.
Love,
Will Glade
The one walking beside you.
I really enjoy your blog. Your insights are great and I love this post. It is so true that most of the time we are our own stumbling blocks but yet we have the power to move those blocks and walk freely. Pornography is no different. Lots of people don't see pornography as a very big addiction or as something that is hard to overcome but it is. It is so hard because it is so easy to start. I have heard so many stories of how pornography has ruined relationships and I am glad that you are bringing awareness to it. People need to realize that it is a problem and they need to be supportive of those who are going through it because it is a trial. I love one of the last thoughts you give that says that we are never too far lost to return to the light. It is just like what the gospel says. There is no sin that Christ hasn't paid for and that you cant repent for. He is there to help you and so are we.
ReplyDeleteI know of many who struggle with pornography addiction and they have realize how destructive it can be. I am glad you are taking the time to bring awareness about this issue. It is true that we are our own stumbling blocks most of the time but we have the power to move those blocks. I loved how you said "we are never too far lost to return to the light and shed ourselves of addictions". We always have a way back, we just need to have that desire and decide to return back. I have quite enjoyed reading your blog post because I find myself agreeing with everything that you share. I also admire how sincere and inspirational your writing is. I have showed your blog to a few of my friends who are struggling with pornography and they have said that you are helping them get through their addiction with each post that you blog. You are a great writer! Keep it up.
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